Friday Morning

Roaming around my thoughts
Awakening my senses
Believing in you and only you
I blind myself consciously
To hear what I want to hear.

I am a slave to your words
To every single sound that comes out of your throat
Navigating through our world
We create golden dreams that melt into reality.

Liquid and light
Fragile like glass
I know you don't want to step forward
Still asking, still insecure if its going to be worth it.

I may change and I could believe for a while you are the one
But my mind works in such a weird way
What I say today
Could mean nothing tomorrow.

In my ideal world you are there
Standing, dancing close to my body
Holding me when I feel like crap
When I feel ugly and useless.

You should better know certain things about me
I look at the mirror and don't see the same girl people perceive
I have endless insecurities
And you'd better deal with them.

Far away from being perfect
I am still trying to recapitulate my older mistakes
Slowly learning
Thinking things over and over again.

I might get scared
I might try to find somebody else
Not because you are not enough
It's me, not knowing where to go.

I may need your guidance
I may need to hear you love me
I may need you
Fully, completely, all you.

All of you
I want all of you.